I believe that when you spend your time doing bad things, being mean to people, lying to and about people, eventually it will all come back on you. Your meanness and lies will be reveled and those that believed you will no longer, if they are smart anyway.
I was married for 20 years. After I moved out things were okay, he was being nice and helpful, until I wouldn't spend a night with him and he realized that I really wasn't coming back. Then he was mean, he wouldn't help with the kids. He was mad because he didn't get his way. I was no longer listening to him. I was never the type of wife to wait on him hand and foot, that's not me, he was not a baby, he knew how to do things on his own. Did I make his meals, fill his plates? Sure. but I didn't walk away from my meal to get him more. Did I take care of the house and kids and make sure our utilities stayed on? Sure. Did I work outside the house in addition to everything I did at the house? Yes, I did.I shoveled the snow in the winter because he had a bad back and I didn't want him doing that much extra with all he was already doing for our family.
I did a lot for my family, like most moms, I put my kids first, I provided for them and did for them, the same as I did my husband. After a few years of marriage, when the first one arrived, he changed, started going out dirt bike riding and hunting because he needed to relax. I was a stay at home mom then so I poured myself into raising my daughter. I tried for years to make our family what we discussed before we had our first daughter. He didn't seem interested. The second arrived almost five years later, he was more interested but still not really involved like I had hoped that he would become. When both kids were old enough we started watching the Harry Potter movies at the theater, it was our special treat, a family thing we did, he went with us for the first couple and after that he said he didn't want to go. The girls were hurt, we started watching them as a family and he was choosing to walk away. The girls and I finished the series without him. We did a lot of things without him.
The divorce came to late, I always wish that I had left sooner, it will always be a regret of mine. Because I believed him when he said he wanted to make our marriage work, that he wanted to be a family, he would play the part for a little while and then stop. At some point I stopped believing him and began to withdrawal. My "attempts" at having a happy family were over and after some time and a lot of reflection I was okay with it. Moving out was the best thing I had done and it happened at time when I was stressed, depressed, frustrated and angry. The stress of being a full time single parent made me withdrawal more into myself. I took nearly everything that reminded me of him out of the house. All but two photos that he was in were gone, I got rid of Christmas stuff, things he gave me, most of them anyway, some I've had trouble parting with but others I was glad to get rid of.
The last couple of days have been very revealing for me, about my ex-husband. He married shortly after the divorce was final, within six months or so, I think. I didn't really care, I had moved on. His wife though, she would come with him to pick up my daughter, some times she would come alone to pick up my daughter. Every single time she gave me dirty looks, she never said Hi or Hello, she never asked how I'm doing, she just sat in the car glaring at me. I honestly felt bad for her because she didn't know the truth, she didn't know what I had been through, she listened to his lies.
The last couple of days I found out that they are getting divorced. He was cheating on her. I suspected that he was cheating on me but I didn't have proof, other than he kept accusing me of cheating on him and then I told him that I thought he was cheating and he didn't deny it. That's all I needed to know. I was officially done with him and trying was over. In 2010 I began making my plans to leave and after a couple months the girls and I moved out, on April Fool's Day.
I've been messaging with his soon to be ex, he lied to her like he lied to me, he was cheating on her, talking to "women" on-line but I'm pretty sure that they were men from other countries, based on how they spoke in text. He was smoking pot and lying to her about it, just like he did with me. He put his wants before the necessities of the house. He used her for the money she had, she paid off his debts to his brother, she lost her tax refund to his child support because he didn't tell her he was behind. He used her for vacations, got a house out of her and a new truck. When my youngest turned 18 and he was not longer required to keep medical insurance on the kids, he dropped them from the medical insurance, medical insurance that she paid for through her job. He told her a few months ago that he fell out of love with her a couple years ago, about the time his parental responsibilities ended. He didn't need her any more then, she had covered his financial stuff so he was good. She realized that she had been used.
She found out about everything in July of this year, the day after, she went to an attorney. Her family is supporting her in divorcing him. She removed herself from his auto loan and the second house they bought together but I suspect it was more her. I think she should have sold it or forced him to buy her out of her half, she made her decision and she's now done with him. She will have no responsibility for where he lives. She feels that soon enough he will be homeless and jobless and then he'll probably end up back at his brothers house, in debt again, going through forecloser, again.
Vindication for me, at least with some people. I spent years being told I was crazy, that I made things up, that I lied, that I didn't try, that I took his kids away from him. I spent years fighting myself, I spent years telling myself that I really did try everything I could think of to make the marriage work and it wasn't all my fault. I spent years feeling alone and hurt and had a whole group of people who despite seeing what I went through in the marriage still abandoned me and my daughters when I walked out. They believed everything he said and I was the bad person that was finally gone and no longer existed. I think that losing that family hurt me more than walking away from him, which is sad but it's the truth. His wife now knows the truth and has expressed to me that some of what he has told her, she now believes were lies because he made the same accusations towards her. She now sees him for who and what he truly is; a liar, a manipulator, a user, a cheater, and substance abuser. I'm sure I'm forgetting but that list is long enough.
I looked through the DSM-5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. Looking at the criteria, he falls under Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD) and Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD). He is on meds but about to lose his insurance because it's through HER work. He's threatened her, she's changed the locks on the house and has multiple police that live in her area, they are keeping an eye on her and her home, in case he decides to come over without her knowing.
For anyone who has gone through even part of what I have, who has felt that they were not believed, was turned on by others who believed the lies. Their time will come. Karma will come back around, you will get your own vindication. You just need to be patient enough to wait it out and let those people keep digging their holes, eventually they won't be able to get out.
I've been messaging with his soon to be ex, he lied to her like he lied to me, he was cheating on her, talking to "women" on-line but I'm pretty sure that they were men from other countries, based on how they spoke in text. He was smoking pot and lying to her about it, just like he did with me. He put his wants before the necessities of the house. He used her for the money she had, she paid off his debts to his brother, she lost her tax refund to his child support because he didn't tell her he was behind. He used her for vacations, got a house out of her and a new truck. When my youngest turned 18 and he was not longer required to keep medical insurance on the kids, he dropped them from the medical insurance, medical insurance that she paid for through her job. He told her a few months ago that he fell out of love with her a couple years ago, about the time his parental responsibilities ended. He didn't need her any more then, she had covered his financial stuff so he was good. She realized that she had been used.
She found out about everything in July of this year, the day after, she went to an attorney. Her family is supporting her in divorcing him. She removed herself from his auto loan and the second house they bought together but I suspect it was more her. I think she should have sold it or forced him to buy her out of her half, she made her decision and she's now done with him. She will have no responsibility for where he lives. She feels that soon enough he will be homeless and jobless and then he'll probably end up back at his brothers house, in debt again, going through forecloser, again.
Vindication for me, at least with some people. I spent years being told I was crazy, that I made things up, that I lied, that I didn't try, that I took his kids away from him. I spent years fighting myself, I spent years telling myself that I really did try everything I could think of to make the marriage work and it wasn't all my fault. I spent years feeling alone and hurt and had a whole group of people who despite seeing what I went through in the marriage still abandoned me and my daughters when I walked out. They believed everything he said and I was the bad person that was finally gone and no longer existed. I think that losing that family hurt me more than walking away from him, which is sad but it's the truth. His wife now knows the truth and has expressed to me that some of what he has told her, she now believes were lies because he made the same accusations towards her. She now sees him for who and what he truly is; a liar, a manipulator, a user, a cheater, and substance abuser. I'm sure I'm forgetting but that list is long enough.
I looked through the DSM-5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. Looking at the criteria, he falls under Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD) and Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD). He is on meds but about to lose his insurance because it's through HER work. He's threatened her, she's changed the locks on the house and has multiple police that live in her area, they are keeping an eye on her and her home, in case he decides to come over without her knowing.
For anyone who has gone through even part of what I have, who has felt that they were not believed, was turned on by others who believed the lies. Their time will come. Karma will come back around, you will get your own vindication. You just need to be patient enough to wait it out and let those people keep digging their holes, eventually they won't be able to get out.
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